something worth keeping

I think that sometimes when you think you can do everything by yourself youre horribly mistaken, because in all actuallity most everything youve ever done had an equation of you plus someone else or even multiple people. I am not an exception to this.. because all throughout my life ive tried and tried to do things completely on my own and have failed everytime. I finally realized im not a failure just my way of thinking is sometimes.. My friends and family have never given up on me and i really believe that im the luckiest girl in the world! When i met mckay he flipped my world upside down and pretty much gave me a really big reason to never give up. [reason: because hes in my life] I just hope that someday i can be as good to him as he is to me! Hes my best friend and so many more things.. I love all my family and friends.. they are the raddest ever and im convinced they always will be!

life quotes

"Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.” (Chuck Palahniuk)

“Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.”

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” (Maria Robinson)

“To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”

“The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.” (Tom Bodett)

“The world is a stage, but the play is badly cast.” (Oscar Wilde)

“He lives the poetry that he cannot write. The others write the poetry that they dare not realise.” (Oscar Wilde)

“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”

“Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.” (Kevin Arnold)

“Never waste a minute of your precious life by squandering it thinking about people you don't like”

“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children...to leave the world a better place...to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” (Ralph Waldo Emerson)

“Look at life through the windshield, not the rear-view mirror” (Byrd Baggett)

last night

Yesterday was November 12th.. (a year ago we were engaged) It's oh so crazy to think it's been that long that our journey began! Well.. last night i wanted to do something cute and fun for mckay so we went back like 17 years ish and finger painted the night away.. It was really fun because it seems like everything in everyones life nowadays is too robotic and serious. Ours is far from that and this is just one more thing that promises itll stay that way forever!

I also cooked him dinner.. i thought i was good at it by now, but last night it was bad! I think i was trying to do too many things in a short period of time.. needless to say i burned almost everything but the mashed potatoes! Its frusterating because i thought i was getting so good at it.. guess i have to keep working on it! (Well anyway) after that we watched Charly and of course i cried.. i seem to be more emotional.. (I dont know why.. that was a lie i actually do :P) I love Mckay and i just wanna say that the ride will never be over it seems like it starts new and fresh every day. The day we got married our separate lives came together to make one explosive companionship and it will always be just that.

insurance companies should die.. (well the ones from texas)

Okay, so we were going to class like 2 weeks ago and got in a wreck. There were no injuries so thats good but our truck is totaled. It was the other guys fault so were off the hook and guess what his name was... MARVIS TAYLOR! and now I think we have found the name for our first child... boy or girl! Anyway, his insurance company is out of Texas so they said that they couldn't really do anything for this accident.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! Isn't that what insurance companies are for? Well that's what we thought.. but apparently not the ones from Texas! We have Geico so they were all over it but I guess the other insurance company gave them the wrong claim number so it's taken like 5 years to get everything done. (okay maybe not that long but still too long) So.. yesterday the adjuster finally came and took pictures, got our statement and everything. All in all it's sucked but hopefully it'll be over soon and well get a fat check in the mail.. this is gonna be good!

My emotion..

So. I know i talk about mckay alot but it's really hard not to because hes my other half. I've been thinking lately that even if one simple or extreme thing in my life had gone different we wouldnt be together. I for sure wouldnt be married to my best friend, have found a love like i did, and accomplished the things i already have. My life would be so different so for that i thank God to have someone so special.

I always have something to say.. im not always the nicest person.. and sometimes i say what i think even when im not supposed to. Mckay is the best thing that has ever happened to the universe because of the person he is and the things hes done in his life.. he saved me.. and has further completed everything about me and who ive always wanted to be..

Its funny sometimes i have the deepest things to say and sometimes i just have things to say.. but mostly what im writing now is just true.. i believe that i have loved a specific person all my life, the one i want to spend forever with i just had to find him.. then i did.

So all in all my life is complete because of mckay and i have never wanted anything like i have this.. it means everything in life for him to be my everything.

labor day weekend..

Going to park city was really so fun! We watched the crazy skiiers go off the jumps into the training pool, went on a bob sled ride and on this crazy zip line :D Although the feelings were intense the weekend was quite chill. Mckay, my brother, and dad all went golfing monday morning while me and my mom got a massage! Seriously the perfect ending to an awesome weekend...

our date night + a new poem

Last night my best friend fell asleep during a movie.. it wasn't me this time!

We went through the drive thru at mcdonalds and then came home and set up our sleeping bags outside to watch a movie. Together we watched the movie for about 20 minutes and then mckay fell asleep. So after that I watched it by myself. The movie was so good.. so it was ok that I was the only one watching it. The movie was Elizabethtown! It kinda got me thinking about alot of things. I actually wrote a poem about it. Well I started one, and the heart behind it comes from mckay, my best friend.
Every day is different than the one before
It may be better than yesterday or worse but its still another day
I'll always look forward
That way I'll never have to justify putting the imperfect things on hold
So I have time to finally enjoy the little things in life..
Like the things that make you smile and cry at the same time
And the ones that make you mad and laugh too.
It's the things that we never realize could change our day
and the ones that already have.

So.. I guess this is kinda like my tribute to mckay. He is always by my side even if he may not agree with my decision, but he still stands by it. He never doubts me and always treats me like his princess.. he's my best friend and I can't function without him. Mckay has never let me down, he dreams with me and they always come true. The day I met him the stars aligned and everything in my life finally made sense. I love you BOE BOE.

its the little things in life that should always make you happy..

Like when your deciding what to cook for dinner and you cant really think of anything so you just boil some hot dogs, make french fries, and call it good. He comes home and the first thing out of his mouth when he finds out whats for dinner is, "How did you know my favorite way to eat hot dogs is boiled?" Dang im seriously the luckiest girl in the world!!

10 funny quotes we found..

1. Robert Benchley: It took me fifteen years to discover I had no talent for writing, but I couldn't give it up, because by that time I was too famous.

2. Oscar Levant: What the world needs is more geniuses with humility, there are so few of us left.

3. Paul Merton: I'm always amazed to hear of air crash victims so badly mutilated that they have to be identified by their dental records. What I can't understand is, if they don't know who you are, how do they know who your dentist is?

4. Homer Simpson: You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is 'never try'.

5. Jean Kerr: I'm tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep. That's deep enough. What do you want - an adorable pancreas?

6. Steven Wright: If toast always lands butter-side down, and cats always land on their feet, what happens if you strap toast on the back of a cat and drop it?

7. Partick Moore: At my age I do what Mark Twain did. I get my daily paper, look at the obituaries page and if I'm not there I carry on as usual.

8. Groucho Marx: I don't care to belong to a club that accepts people like me as members.

9. Ellen DeGeners: You have to stay in shape. My grandmother, she started walking five miles a day when she was 60. She's 97 today and we don't know where the hell she is.

10. Elayne Boosler: I have six locks on my door all in a row. When I go out, I only lock every other one. I figure no matter how long somebody stands there picking the locks, they are always locking three.

100 reasons i married my best friend.. (ps theyre all still true)

1 When he smiles I know everything's ok
2 Hes protective
3 He would die if I did
4 Ive never felt something like I did with him
5 The first time he saw me I was wearing sweats
6 I could always just be me and it was better than good enough
7 He tucked me in before he went home
8 Some mornings before I woke up he would make me breakfast and bring it over
9 He cried when he told me how much he loved me
10 We only fought about pointless things then laughed when it was over
11 He told me I was the prettiest girl he'd ever seen within seconds of meeting
12 He always made up cheesy pick up lines even after he had me
13 I never had to ask for his attention, it was always mine
14 The love we had was incomparable to anything in the world
15 Sometimes late at night after he left he would call me just to say hi
16 The notebook is his favorite chick flick
17 Our pasts never really mattered
18 Life was easier with him by my side
19 He inspired me to be better than my best and still does
20 I was always his number one priority
21 Hes basically a rock star!
22 When we went running we always ran side by side
23 Nothing else mattered but making me happy
24 Hes a really good cook
25 I randomly would say something and he always followed it and still does
26 We dream big
27 We did random things and it didnt matter even though we looked retarded most of the time
28 I wanted to achieve things because of him
29 Because we always have random dance parties
30 And pillow fights
31 Together were invincible
32 He reminds me of my dad and brother
33 Hes got some serious swagg!
34 The only reason his phone is important is to talk to me
35 He thinks I have the prettiest voice in the world.. especially when I sing in the shower
36 Because we finish each others sentences
37 And we have the same reason to eating ice cream at one in the morning
38 The first movie we saw together was the ringer!
39 A perfect date wasnt when we got all dressed up
40 It was when we wore sweats, watched our favorite movie, and ate pizza
41 Because we knew we couldnt live without each other
42 I picked out his clothes for everything we did
43 He always told me I was the best thing that ever happened to him
44 I never wanted to date after I met him
45 He gave me butterflies every time I saw him
46 Because we have the same ideas about life and what we want to get out of it
47 We completed each others world and still do
48 He tried things I loved just because he wanted to be with me that bad
49 And I did things he loved because I knew it would make him happy
50 Because im basically a wreck without him.. ask my friends
51 No matter what I did he stood by me
52 We compromise and meet in the middle because fighting is pointless
53 He always told me how special I was
54 Because if today was my last day I would want to spend it with him
55 Hes made my dreams come true
56 I saw something in him that I couldnt ever see in anyone else
57 He knows what were capable of
58 Because a rope swing+2 am+freezing cold water=the best night ever
59 When we kissed for the first time I think my foot popped
60 Our dreams come true because of each other
61 We both hate girls named brooke!
62 Because we take our camera everywhere we go but forget to take pictures
63 If I got old and forgot things I knew I would remember someday
64 That all those things in my head happened because of him
65 He loves me because im beautiful and im beautiful because he loves me
66 Even though I always cut him off when we talk he still wants to hear what I have to say
67 I cant ever do anything too wrong that he gets mad
68 Because we know more about each other than our selves
69 All my dreams had him in them and they still do
70 Our best friends are each other
71 He proposed to me on the temple grounds
72 Because everything he does he does it for me
73 My knight in shining armor came in a form that no other girls ever could.. hes perfect
74 I have never been happier with my life than when hes in it
75 He always knows what to say even when I dont
76 Because I dreamt of the day I would be this happy and no one could make it happen but him
77 My eyes smile when I talk, think or look at him and when we kiss theres definitely fireworks
78 Its hard getting up in the morning knowing that he wont be there in a matter of minutes
79 And it doesnt get any better realizing that the whole day hes gone too
80 We drive each other crazy and say stupid things sometimes but that doesnt matter
81 Because our love in undeniable
82 He was for sure worth the wait and im so glad I did
83 Money doesnt make us happy being together does
84 Because pointless things make us laugh
85 We wont ever live because of anything else but each other
86 He knew he couldnt live without me
87 We both think love is like PI.. natural, irrational, and very important
88 Were inseparable
89 Because it was no surprise that we fell in love.. everyone saw it
90 I turn my phone off when im with him because I dont want to talk to anyone else
91 We have each others hearts and backs
92 He thinks im an angel
93 Because he tells me how much I mean to him everyday
94 When he said he loved me I knew he wasnt lying
95 And when I said it back I knew we just took it to a whole nother level
96 Im always thinking about him even when hes standing right next to me
97 He likes my random dancing sessions in the car
98 My life changed the second I met him and every minute after has been more than perfect
99 He thinks I smell terrific!
100 Because hes my air

someday were going to join a biker gang and get tattoo's just because we can..

Mckay calls me bear.. well he calls me a lot of different names but mostly this one! So.. I decided to give him a tattoo. You know how all the celebrities seem to do like the second after they meet and they never stay together so it was a really pointless gesture anyway.. but that's not the case with us! Well be together forever.. in better and in worse.

our wedding day!

Getting married in January was one of the best ideas we ever came up with! Even though it was freezing outside the day couldn't have been any better.. I became the luckiest girl in the world. The photographer we had went crazy with taking pictures but it was all worth it in the end..

bridal shower..

I had 2 bridal showers.. one in Fountain Green and one in PG. I'm way blessed with friends and family who support me and help with everything! I got so much stuff.. and it was really fun to be the center of attention!

the proposal

Mckay proposed to me on November 12, 2008.. I had no idea it was coming. I knew we were going to get married but the timing was crazy! We had been looking at rings a couple weeks before and found 3 that I fell in love with. Mckay told me that he had to go to Provo to have the last meeting with this consultant so I thought it would still be at least 2 weeks. Well.. that night we were engaged with the cutest storybook proposal.

trip to moab

A couple days later Mckay asked if I wanted to go to Moab for the weekend. We left early the next day.. I think this was the trip that would define our relationship forever. He saw the worst and even worse sides of me in the 4 days we were gone. Through the no makeup.. wet hair.. and t shirts he fell in love. Little did he know, I did too. Falling head over heels was easy.

how it all started

So.. my life completely changed on August 22, 2008. I never would have guessed that someone almost too special could be my lover forever. This guy flew into my life like a speeding bullet.. we've been going at that same pace since then. Mckay is my one true soulmate.. the person I have become something for and the one who just keeps suprising me with the love he gives.